I can’t be the only whiney baby out there who goes through long…..LONG …Super duper long periods of time where I’m afraid to draw. I don’t know why this happens. Feelings of mediocrity and depression. I find things that I “have” to do before I can sit down to illustrate, address a manuscript, paint or basically do anything to advance my career. It’s self sabotage.
This fear hurdle creeps up on me and then suddenly, I have to do the laundry..or redo the closets. I find myself baking allot as well. I can always legitimize why I’m not working. I mean, I’m baking wonderful deserts because I love my kids and I want them to feel loved with homemade baked goods fresh from the oven.
Ahhh good times right? Well, I feel it’s time to kick myself in the pants. Logically I know what I’m doing …so I have to work through it and force myself to sit in my art-room and do something other then play online dominoes. I’ve decided to start Illustration Friday.
This weeks topic came in the e-mail as it always does. I usually look at the topic, think about what I would do. Feel satisfied with it and then do nothing about it. That’s it! Nothing ever happens. But not this time. This weeks topic is Hoard. I usually try to not be so obvious, but baby steps. I didn’t want to stress over it. Here is my rough sketch for hoard. I will post the illustrations progress.
I’ve messed around with it some more.
I’ve decided to keep my illustration Friday’s sketchy and free. I want to keep lines, mistakes, and pencil marks. I never turn in anything loose but I’ve always liked loose drawings. This is now my exercise. I’ve had to load the image with a digital camera. My scanner no longer is compatible with my computer now that I’ve upgraded to Tiger. I’ve also misplaced every single brush except one old crummy one. I tried to paint watercolor, but it didn’t work in places with the fixative. Where the watercolor wouldn’t adhere, I used markers. Somethings worked, many things didn’t. There are so many areas II would like to fix, but I didn’t let it bother me and I moved forward. It was a very freeing and relaxing exercise.
I can’t wait for next Friday.